jawnbc | 2006: one day more

I don't tend to be terribly introspective this time of year(s). Perhaps because I'm quasi-introspective most days. Hopefully not terribly so.

I try to tend to my relationships on an ongoing basis. I try to be cognizant of what is going on (and what is not going on), the quality of interactions, and--most importantly--the degree to which I'm endeavouring to contribute to them. I'm amazed at the seeming endless ability of so many to self-reference everything. It all used to be about me. It was pretty awful. Paying a lot more attention to others has meant my needs are met more consistently and more comfortably. Without demands for same.

The last 12 months have been something of a juggling act though. Juggling work issues, networking and hustling to get us situated in Canada. Doing a lot of hoop jumping with respect to bureaucracy. And throwing a few more financial balls into the air. All as a long-term investment. Already it's paying off; already I'll start to get things in better shape. I don't mean to overstate my capabilities here: I do tend to spend more than I should. However, in a year when I've been to India, Canada (twice), Ireland, and New Zealand, to use not having $$ as an excuse for missing Aunt Brenda's funeral would have been churlish. And I would have regretted it for the rest of my life. But already I've been presented with some opportunities that will pay down the crap debt (credit cards) and with

querrelle starting work soon, it's looking much brighter. If need be I can do another couple of work-like-a-dawg months, and be crap debt free by this time next year.

I have the same resolution for 2006 as for 2005 and many years before it: if something needs to be done, I resolve to do it now, or to try to, to the best of my abilities. I won't use calendars or cultural norms to rationalize poor self care or bad manners.

Bonne nouvelle année