Diamond smiles
Nov. 21st, 2006 09:22 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
jawnbcAs I was walking home from an at times fractious and tense meeting, I was overcome with a wave of sadness. And, for a moment, I linked it to the meeting.
And then I realized that it's the depression. I find that Depression can very quickly tank my spirits (sadness, cynicism, resentment, rancour) and just as quickly find something very reasonable to hang it on. Like a tough meeting, or the defects of character of others. When really it's the darkness, the cunning, insidious darkness. So I came home, told![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
querrelle about it, did a few things to decompress, and went to sleep.
And today has been...mixed. Got a bit done, but not as much as yesterday. Today I met with 2 colleagues to revise our journal article (love them), then had dinner with a former student who is just an awesome person. I had a noice bath and arose with some wind in my sails so I just did an hour's work.
Now I'm gonna make some guac and have a snack before my husband returns from his evening.
And then I realized that it's the depression. I find that Depression can very quickly tank my spirits (sadness, cynicism, resentment, rancour) and just as quickly find something very reasonable to hang it on. Like a tough meeting, or the defects of character of others. When really it's the darkness, the cunning, insidious darkness. So I came home, told
querrelle about it, did a few things to decompress, and went to sleep.And today has been...mixed. Got a bit done, but not as much as yesterday. Today I met with 2 colleagues to revise our journal article (love them), then had dinner with a former student who is just an awesome person. I had a noice bath and arose with some wind in my sails so I just did an hour's work.
Now I'm gonna make some guac and have a snack before my husband returns from his evening.
