Diamond smiles

[jawnbc]

As I was walking home from an at times fractious and tense meeting, I was overcome with a wave of sadness. And, for a moment, I linked it to the meeting.

And then I realized that it's the depression. I find that Depression can very quickly tank my spirits (sadness, cynicism, resentment, rancour) and just as quickly find something very reasonable to hang it on. Like a tough meeting, or the defects of character of others. When really it's the darkness, the cunning, insidious darkness. So I came home, told querrelle about it, did a few things to decompress, and went to sleep.

And today has been...mixed. Got a bit done, but not as much as yesterday. Today I met with 2 colleagues to revise our journal article (love them), then had dinner with a former student who is just an awesome person. I had a noice bath and arose with some wind in my sails so I just did an hour's work.

Now I'm gonna make some guac and have a snack before my husband returns from his evening.

Comments

[gfrancie.livejournal.com]

Depression sure can feel like a wave crashing over you and at least for me there are times when I have felt like I didn't have enough time to catch my breath or orient myself before the next wave came through.

[growler-south.livejournal.com]

Good on ya for recognising the evil- it doesnt make it easier, but at least you're not blaming it on your life any more. Bad brain chemicals, naughty!

*hugs*

[quirkstreet.livejournal.com]

You know, that's one of THE biggest survival / get-back-t-normal techniques I've had to acquire, that business of talking back to those linkages between depression and what *seems* to be "causing" it. While I'm not all happy for you that you're having to fight this shite off, I AM very glad you have this realization in your arsenal. Hugs.

[ptownnyc.livejournal.com]

*hug*

You talking with a professional about this? It seems to be lingering ...

[jawnbc]

appointment next Monday with The World's Best Homo Shrink™

[feygele.livejournal.com]

Wow, said shrink is ™ed? Who is this esteemed individual?

[jawnbc]

Pezzot

[devcubber.livejournal.com]

hi honey, I hope you are getting any/all the help you need for these feelings of depression. I myself suffer from OCD w/bouts of depression, and have watched my mother, a bipolar, NOT live most of her life due to trying to wrangle the disease by herself. I don't know how you feel about meds, but if your brain is depleted of a substance that a medicine can help restore, please do not be shy to try it. Also, what saves my ass every year when the light wanes is a light box. Cannot live without it anymore.

*smooches and smiles*

[jawnbc]

I'm a big believe in meds...the one's I'm taking just don't seem to be working anymore. But I'm hopeful I'll find another that will.

Thanks love

[enhydrasf.livejournal.com]

the tanning guru, recommends a 5-7 minute tanning session, 1 or 2 times a week...for vitamin D production and for a sense of well being.

Tanning releases enporphins, and causes a general feeling of well being, much like a mellower runner's high. It also helps with sympotms of SAD, depression, and menstrual pains!

trust me on this. I know what I am talking about

[querrelle.livejournal.com]

You'll be pleased to hear that I started at my local tanning salon just last week to try to knock a psoriasis outbreak on the head. Too early to say if it's helping any, but it can't do any harm.