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[jawnbc]

I am tired of the antipodean life. Stop the ride I wanna get off. Please.

I could rant about what's wrong with Australia, but that's really not the point. What is wrong with Australia is it's not Canada. Nor is Sydney Vancouver. Oz doesn't suit me like Canada does...and I suspect this is all coming to a head (my head, to be precise) now because I'm closing in on the departure date for my trip to Vancouver and SF (17 May-08 June).

So I'm crabby. For fun, let's presume my crabbiness, in its particular manifestations is actually caused by the things that are right up my nose presently. These are:

new iPod features not available to older iPods. I mean, what the fook--I paid CA$800 6 months ago, and I can't access the new bloody alarm clock and on-the-go playlist? Bullshit, total bullshit

writing a paper. I'm going to SF for the US-based in early June. This year's event includes the first-ever queer/LGBTA pre-conference, which I want to support. So I'm giving 2 papers in SF, one at the main conference and one at the queer pre-conf. And the pre-conf paper was due 41 minutes ago and I've several--no, many--hours of work still to do.

money. My fellowship is gonna run dry 3-5 months earlier than anticipated; will soon enter the cash advance zone.Only the fookin' Aussie gov't won't permit international post-docs to teach while here; good for students and the post-doc (exposure to new perspectives & intl developments).By coming here, I essentially took a 10k salary cut.

love life. Getting it, lots. Could use some romance, intimacy--haven't felt this sort of longing in years. But if I get into something/someone now, I'm leaving in August anyways: wanted, intense, short term relationship with lots of passion and fun and no expectations. Uh-huh, yeah, right

For some reasons, the song "out here on my own" from the Fame soundtrack keeps popping into my head....this cannot bode well for my mental health.

Calgon, take me away.....

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[ranger1.livejournal.com]

But if I get into something/someone now, I'm leaving in August anyways: wanted, intense, short term relationship with lots of passion and fun and no expectations. Uh-huh, yeah, right

Ah... you've condensed one of my biggest headaches into two concise sentences. Perhaps it'll help me avoid exorbitant ranting in my own journal.

As far as these heuristics are concerned, I'm mostly compatible with them. Better to have loved and lost, etc. etc. Consequently, I find it difficult to accept that the other 95% of the population does not think this way. They find a time-limited relationship to be extremely unappealing. This leaves me... well, very frustrated. Wishing that Life had a fast-forward button. Damn, where did I put that remote anyway...

So save some room for me in that Calgon-filled bathtub, eh? :-)

[jawnbc]

So save some room for me in that Calgon-filled bathtub, eh?

done! though I prefer Body Shop Musk bath gel...lovely bubbles, non-odious scent, and a lovely blue...

[bearchow.livejournal.com]

Hang in there, only 4 more months! ... I am totally there for ya, grad school is tough, and I admire you much for finishing a PhD and going on to post-grad! Never again for me, I hate everyone in the academic for now (cept you of course!) I never understand why governments restrict employment for graduate students, not that we are going to sell burgers in a local greasy spoon and ruin the job market; don't they understand the importance of exchange of ideas in every level?

On the love front, I have no idea why not more people are into short term intense affairs, I think the success rate of dating for LTR is so low, it is more like a bunch of successive short term relationships anyway!

[jawnbc]

thanks Ivan! Big hugs!

[ruralrob.livejournal.com]

Gee - and I thought you were loving it out there. Sounds like this was just you putting on a big ole happy face for us and your heart really belongs here. Well - that's good to know in a funny kind of way. The Great White North is a pretty good country, isnt it, and probably nothing helps you see that better than being as far away from it as you can possibly get.

Just hang in there and you'll be home in no time. In the meantime, enjoy the experience for what is - a chance in a lifetime that you were very smart to take.

[jawnbc]

No, you're right and I am...enjoying it. But I know where my heart is, and it's not Sydney.

Just in from an evening with friends, featuring lively, engaged, topical banter (not unlike your uthual thuthpectth). Quite wonderful.

*switched to lemonade mode from whinging mode*

[vaneramos.livejournal.com]

Could use some romance, intimacy--haven't felt this sort of longing in years.

Where is the universe when you need it to do something, eh?

[jawnbc]

thanks...

[schillerium.livejournal.com]

But if I get into something/someone now, I'm leaving in August anyways: wanted, intense, short term relationship with lots of passion and fun and no expectations. Uh-huh, yeah, right

In my experience, such relationships can happen, but you're right, they seldom (if ever) come along when they're specifically what you're looking for. Sucks, sometimes.

[jawnbc]

Sucks, sometimes

???

;)

(thanks for the kind words)

[art-thirst.livejournal.com]

Studio art doesn't have a doctoral program which has frustrated me in that I can't qualify for some grants/fellowships offered to doctoral or post-docs. Taking a pay cut that deep hurts but 10k would do me a world of good right now. I turned in my grades Mon. and now I'm unemployed until I can find something.
As far as the intense relationship goes, I would like to think it's possible but I'm not good at hunting in bars or baths, or wherever so all I can do is wish you luck. Coming to FL. wouldn't hurt... :-)

Oh, I finally posted my Museum as Utopia piece. I had finals to do and got too busy the past month so it's full of quotations. They'll get the idea anyhow...

http://www.miamiartexchange.com/pages/2003/05/shabaka_05-2003-1.html

[jawnbc]

Interesting article/s. thanks

[minimac.livejournal.com]

I also purchased an iPod a few months ago...I feel your pain. Throw in some bath salts with that calgon...and don't forget the glass of wine!

[jawnbc]

Thanks

*sound of bath running*

[beardoc.livejournal.com]

Getting it, lots. Could use some romance, intimacy--haven't felt this sort of longing in years.

That's Sydney. It's incredibly easy for sex. It's harder to actually get the intimacy. Kinda like the Bay Area in that respect.

[jawnbc]

That's Sydney. It's incredibly easy for sex. It's harder to actually get the intimacy...

Ah, but I finally got to meet you Seumas...certainly worth the airfare merely for that!